Dez's Bootcamp Experience (BRK)

POST 95 (DAY 102, Friday, 2020.11.20)
[Morning Entry] ::: Comfort Zone :::

.. They had warned me about the "Comfort Zone".. Of course, I didn't believe that it could be me who would succumb to such a naive kind of longing.. surely, I was past that stage of my life.. right?.. ha! .. Here I am today, seeking the comfort of my routines.. and whatever challenge it seems unfounded or irrelevant.. seems..
    Who is "they"?.. the millionaire life coaches i had a chance to be around during a 5 year period of my life, when I too was striving to become a "millionaire".. they taught me important life things/principles.. one of which was to "Be willing to leave the comfort zone.." .. in fact much of the success principles they shared were about "The Willingness To.." .. these principles hold true then, today, and in almost every arena I enter.. I believe, from experiential knowledge, that without a willingness to learn and or change, there can be no progress.. As a part of me desperately seeks to find comfort in my routines and long-formed habits, I must be willing to challenge the status quo of my own life.. shall I remain comfortable or remain in flow?.. either can be painful at times.. oh, example time--
    I felt a tug of war within myself when the scheduling for community cleaning was about to be changed from Sunday to Saturday.. I strongly prefer Sunday because then Saturday becomes a full day of no work.. somehow (perhaps irrationally) if I work friday and saturday, then have sunday off, it seems like a shorter weekend.. Does it really matter, Dez? .. probably not.. there's that part of me that wants to remain in routine and unchange.. I was reading a couple pages from "Desert or Paradise" yesterday, and in it, Sepp writes about the rage of water (around page 36 or so).. nature provides water with meadows and places to slow down around the edges of the rivers, so that floods are reduced or eliminated (I believe he claims eliminated).. man-made structures like concrete river banks allow the water to accelerate and create destructive forces that wash away humus and other good things.. water flows as nature intended.. flow is not man-made.. for best results, I believe I shall flow as water, as nature intends.. change.. progress.. growth.. pain.. the race is not yet finished..

POST 96 (DAY 103, Saturday, 2020.11.21)
[Morning Entry]    ::: Adjustment :::

Thursday.. I got the chills and a crazy headache.. the cure was a 2 hour nap.. literal, physical core body temperature not regaining equilibrium.. it was pretty scary because I didn't want to miss work or have to ask someone else to take care of me.. silly, i know.. it was around 30-40 degrees outside on Fred's plot.. my knees were getting slightly wet (a patch about 3 inches wide, around each knee).. who knew that two small wet-patches to take so much of my core heat away?? .. this was also the morning I had decided to fast for the first time in 3 weeks or so.. usually when I fast on a weekly basis, I just move a little slower.. but the first fast in a few weeks or longer, will result in a headache and severe lack of energy--which is what happened.. after lunch I thought I'd be fine, because I ate a lot!.. the headache continued, but I kept working and breathing through the pain.. sometimes its good to meditate on the pain, rather than trying to eliminate the pain--at least that's the idea I was meditating on.. In a strange way too, guess I wanted to feel appreciation for the good of this place.. nothing like a mandatory 2-hour system-reboot to help recognize how much good there is to be grateful for..
    In the frailty and vulnerability of being human, I find a gentleness and humility that helps me to stay in line with my values.. if pride dares to take me off course, I must be willing to remain steadfast to introspection.. to remain willing to adjust my own perspective(s) for the harmony of the ship.. sometimes it takes time too.. there are specifics, but perhaps its too near to share publicly at this time i think..

Friday.. A tarot reading, after work reminds me of my recent rise is pride.. that was the first of seven cards drawn.. the last of the seven showed what I interpreted as "doom".. pride comes before the fall.. and three of the cards in the middle showed potential for fun things.. the other two middle cards showed me my power to overcome.. all hopeful signs, minus the potential "doom".. I'm not necessarily a firm believer in fortune tellings or such things, but I did think it perhaps slightly more than coincidental its relevancy.. =D

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Hope you’re ok and you didn’t get sick, and you’re not posting just because you’re busy and enjoying your day off.

Sending warm virtual hugs your way.

97;104;11/22

Lazy Sunday.. baked cookies, nibbles on snacks, took a nap.. Watched The Village with a few of the folks here at Wheaton Labs.. loved the re-experiencing of it and hearing Josiah’s response of his very first viewing.. Jen started some broth in the crockpot earlier today.. the smell fills the kitchen of savory warmth.. read about the construction of an RMH—turns out that the cross sectional area must remain consistent throughout the piping to obtain optimal performance; and optimal performance is key to a clean burn which also affects maximum conversion of fuel to heat.. another fun fact: the heat riser tube must be three times the height of the fuel loading chamber in order for the syphon to function.. one more fun fact: warm air is better than cold outside air for the intake into the combustion chamber because the temperature can remain hotter which means better conversion once again..

Happy Sunday!

Liv Smith wrote:Hope you’re ok and you didn’t get sick, and you’re not posting just because you’re busy and enjoying your day off.

Sending warm virtual hugs your way.

Thanks for the warm hugs Liv!! Didn’t get sick..and totally enjoying my day off.. might even take a nap actually.. my fav thing is napping in the sun.. perhaps I’ll make a sun room on my plot .. :)
Hope you’re well also.. hugs

POST 98 (DAY 105, Monday , 2020.11.23)
[Morning Entry]

Its odd how the laziness can carry momentum.. yesterday I did a few things, that made me feel slightly productive, but still tasks lingered in my mind i could have done.. rest is good too.. is this my way of seeking comfort?.. it seems this 2nd 90 days of my journey at Wheaton Labs is going to be about refining my sustainable weekend pace.. a pace where i can feel productive and rested, without letting the fire die out.. so perhaps a schedule time window of design or deliberate/intentional dream-building.. a sort of "fuel" to relight the upcoming week's drive and momentum.. (just thinking this through as i write)..

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