POST 210 (DAY 220, Wednesday, 2021.3.17)
THE WORK ... AM: shelf design at the shop, for automotive liquids.. working with E, a former engineer by study and trade.. I was studying to be an engineer before I left college.. so it’s kind of fun to communicate in the language of math or science with another person.. getting all technical with the details of a carpentry project is refreshing and exciting for the geek inside me.. as the cool guy inside me rolls his eyes and huffs a yawn..
... PM: tidy the library a little, by moving some boxes to the shop, to be organized/sorted.. I noticed E (my task buddy for the day) had trouble coming to terms with dealing with a pile of junk that someone else left behind—I relate to this sentiment completely.. it was a mish mash of random hardware and tools.. having to do someone else’s “homework” of organizing a completely avoidable mess-pile conjures, for me, a grumpy mood.. ALAS!!—i, personally, have found a way to overcome this somewhat negative mindset.. care to hear?.. if so, read on.. first, one must be willing to accept the grumpy mood and LOVE it, as is.. then, set a time limit and/or a quantity limit.. “I will address this much in this amount of time, for today.. because gosh darn it, this stuff makes me so grumpy..”.. or as the animated singing eyeball so accurately stated, “put that back where it came from, or so help meeee~~..!” .. so we set limits, gave ourselves a high five for doing that much for today, then moved on to shelf building again.. and man!—E really went for it.. I found myself trying just to keep up with her refreshed enthusiasm level..! :)
POST 211 (DAY 221, Thursday, 2021.3.18)
... THE WORK—AM: organize the box truck, in preparation for moving more stuff in.. working with L, cleaning out a rat nest mansion with piles of you know what.. it was a “mice” time.. PM: shop automotive fluid shelf is built and ready to mount on the wall.. worked with L and E..
POST 212 (DAY 222, Friday, 2021.3.19)
... firewood harvest slam with the whole group.. on the way up the mountain, M and D champion in helping Doug through slippery ice.. branches, sand and sawdust make traction for the proper passage, then.. Doug overheats.. so they hike up about a mile on foot while I wait for Doug to cool down and drive him up to meet the crew of nine loading up Judy’s trailer.. working outdoors, as one team, on one task—there’s no other feeling like that.. welcome to permaculture d1sneyland.. :)
POST 213 (DAY 223, Saturday, 2021.3.20)
... been thinking about identity these past few days.. I remember when I first arrived at WL, my belief was that identity lies in my work ethic.. in other words “how I show up to work/life”.. somewhere along the way a big challenge came my way—a relationship in my life became so distracting to me that I didn’t know who I was anymore.. sudden this other person had become all of my thoughts.. not healthy.. I’ve been down this road before.. sometimes the mind seeks a distraction or diversion when it needs to shift modes for a little while.. luckily I realized just how deep I had fallen into distraction mode, without completely losing my footing.. what awoke me from this delusional state was a night without dinner.. I went to bed hungry, to clear my mind.. yes, on purpose.. (as I write this, the song “clarity” plays in the FPH speaker.. interesting.. “if our love is insanity, why are you my clarity?”)..
... It’s safe to say that my mission in life is not to be distracted by relationships, but to enjoy relationships, while standing firm in my own identity.. so what is my identity?.. is identity simply my consciousness and present awareness?.. maybe it isn’t tied to my work ethic at all.. thus, I suppose, I begin again, the journey of finding my footing.. breathe.. I had attached myself to the idea that I needed this relationship in my life—there are a couple things about this idea that are red flags to me.. attachment and need.. both scream scarcity mentality; in abundance, there are no attachments or needs, because renewal and plenty are continuous things.. one thing is for sure that brings me a great peace: I am not my mind.. my mind may have many thoughts which can be observed without attachment.. I have everything I need already, and more.. such peace.. :)
POST 214 (DAY 224, Sunday, 2021.3.21)
... yesterday was a day in town.. the drive, the time alone, the eye shopping.. gave me some refreshing perspective.. this ship has one captain.. the open sea is treacherous and marvelously beautiful..
... Enjoy the pics~!!!
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