Dez's Bootcamp Experience (BRK)

The camel hair jacket looks really nice--and $8 is a great price!!!

POST 215 (DAY 225, Monday, 2021.3.22)
[Afternoon Entry]

... my morning routine was somewhat influenced by a meeting with Paul.. so I figured I can bump the BRK slot to this afternoon’s lunch time.. and here we are..
... yesterday was an interesting day because I had a really honest talk with a good friend.. I don’t actually remember if I’ve had a talk this open and honest ever.. it’s such a freeing feeling.. I know now that what really made the truth come out of Safety.. a feeling that no matter what outcome, I’d be safe.. normally I don’t like to bottle things up inside because that’s what causes emotional eruptions; seen it all my life and have witnessed myself blow up.. it’s not pretty and I usually feel terrible afterwards.. anyway, this friend listened and what I had feared would be this traumatic and painful experience turned out to be such a liberating and life-giving conversation that mended our bond.. a bond that was struggling to find the rhythm of the moment.. one of my favorite lines from one of my favorite movies, “I want you.. in no uncertain terms.” Yup, I copied it verbatim.. she had no idea it was from a movie.. but it was exact my what I needed to say.. thank you...

... Enjoy the pics~!!!

POST 216 (DAY 226, Tuesday, 2021.3.23)
[Morning Entry]

Continued... by the way it wasn’t the response that was important.. the response was rather vague and confusing, and that’s totally okay.. I was not speaking my truth to be validated; rather simply speaking my truth to set myself free from my own imagined world of fear of rejection.. overcoming the barrier of self-imposed doubt is the reward in and of itself.. for with such a step toward self-realization, I give myself the opportunity to captain my ship.. if I stand at the helm and never touch the wheel to steer the rudder, nobody gains.. by expressing my truth in slow words and simple phrases, the fog of fear suddenly vanished and a transparent being emerges.. even the pain of rejection heals with time and perspective.. and shifting perspective is as accessible as turning the steering wheel just 1 degree.. I’d rather face temporary pain than an infinity of underwhelm.. maybe this is what my childhood teachers meant when they said “be not lukewarm, but as a furry crucible..”.. that phrase had stuck in my mind so deeply because I never considered myself to be lukewarm, nor a firey crucible.. but if I had to choose, I guess now I’d choose the fire.. burn brilliant.. shine bright, fellow permies.. for our own light lightens our loads and each others’..

... enjoy the pics~!!!

Ooooh, I like the Love Shack's wood trim!

POST 217 (DAY 227, Wednesday, 2021.3.24)
[Morning Entry]

... a strange dream.. one of those where my legs were in slow motion.. as if weighed down by blankets.. somehow I had found myself in a hand to hand combat with another smug smirk gentleman (in this dream I was a smug smirk gentleman also).. In my head I can recall memories of snapshot executions of whip kicks and side kicks I had done in the past.. yet during this match, my feet were blankets in the breeze.. flopping around gently in the warm sun.. frustration leads me to use my punches instead.. those are faster than my blanket boots, but I know I’m losing.. frustrated still, and unsure of what I’m actually fighting for, I decide to stop being like Bruc3 L33, and just find my own flow.. awake.. a mild sweat; it’s 5:23am, and I’m late for my morning routine..
... why were my feet so slow and ineffective??..

... Enjoy the pics~!!!

POST 218 (DAY 228, Thursday, 2021.3.25)
[Morning Entry]

... THE WORK: yesterday was a final round of tidying the back of the shop.. Cleared out about half or more of the shelf space and opened up 70% of the back workbench and aisle ways to make more usable area.. the work shop, in my mind must remain a fluid space dedicating its prime real estate for the current-most projects.. this means storage must be minimized and/or moved to outside the workshop.. enter the box truck and boneyard.. weather hardy items can stay outdoors, and the rest can be “indoors” in the box truck.. currently box truck isn’t on level ground, so it would make sense to somehow level it out, ideally.. the box truck needs a name—any ideas welcome!.. anyway, sparkly for now is the rear of the shop.. yay!
... enjoy the pics~!!!

How about "Holden".   I think that might be a real name, plus he's holden all the stuff...

Or Boxy mcBox Face

or Mother Trucker