posted 8 years ago
Is this normal? Yes.
I call mine "mini panic attacks". It happens when you doubt your abilities/capabilities. Everyone does this to a certain degree. It could be at any life changing crossroad - a marriage, divorce, birth, new career, new homestead... Change is scary. I've "jumped off in faith" many frightening times. I've left the security of the familiar to dive head first into the blind, uncertain abyss. Your heart tells you it's the right move, but your head tries to rationalize and analyse, creating doubt. But don't give up. You have to picture what you want and keep saying, "I can do this. And, in time, it will be something I can be proud of." Start by focusing on the water alone and think about the livestock when the time is right.
With forty shades of green, it's hard to be blue.
Garg 'nuair dhùisgear! Virtutis Gloria Merces