Xisca Nicolas wrote:In no way you can or should hide your emotions, but you can HOLD them better.
You can contain them,
in the sense of giving them a bigger container.
Let's say emotions are like milk boiling in a pan....
You just need to grow a larger pan yourself, so that the milk does not go off board.
This is a process, not something you do overnight...
Dan Ohmann wrote:R Ranson - Thank you for the feedback. I'm not sure that my son was picking up on my feelings because I was being real careful about that. After the slaughtering, I got myself together and went to get him at grandma's home.
He asked on the way home if the "man who slaughtered the sheep" had left yet. I said "yes". He asked, "are they killed?" I said "yes". He only said "I didn't get to say goodbye". Ugh... I forgot to have him say goodbye before he left. There wasn't any conversation about it beyond that and I was careful not to express any sadness in front of him. But I think you're absolutely correct in that it would be very easy for him to pick up on my feelings I was projecting.
I really think he will be fine with it. The adults thinking he won't be fine is more of the problem, I'm coming to realize. But this time around, I think it was best he wasn't there since they were pet-like.
As for the calm death, it didn't quite happen. Things didn't turn out like I had hoped. My plan was to lead the lambs with alfalfa pellets (they were "bucket trained") to the kill zone and they would just be snacking on some pellets and then the lights would go out. The butcher had a different plan. It wasn't horrible but it wasn't the low-stress occasion I was hoping for. It was a disappointing way for all my extra care I had given them to come to end.
Dougan Nash wrote:I agree with the sentiment of Gert, but she just conveniently started with a few acres. I know there are a lot of people like me who want to dive right in but land is expensive. I am also (like many in my generation) burdened with student loan debt. Half of what my wife and I make goes towards minimum payments. We were young and dumb and 8 years later, no sign of it ending.