I woke up in the middle of the night and I decided to listen to music and fold clothes in my wardrobe. I always seem to mess it up, now that I have a line up of clothes I will wear, I think I won't have to dig through the wardrobe when I change, trying to figure out what to wear. Therefore the wardrobe has to be in order for most of the time at least for when the kids are around so that I can be a good role model.
In the midst of this I strongly feel I heard gunshots outside, based on how guns sound in movies and it was terrifying because it sounded so close. Last week mai Kumbi mentioned there were gunshots they heard close to the plot. Guns were only real on TV and it seems like it's becoming our reality. I so hope I am wrong. Within a few minutes after I heard the supposedly gun shots, I began to turn a T-shirt which was amongst my sister's clothes and it turns out it's a T-shirt I lost in 2017 I think, which has so much meaning because I had received it as a gift. I had it mixed with her clothes when I visited her and it's still new. I had the back of it facing me and the lines on the T-shirt came one by one, as I was turning it ( I am not exaggerating anything, it was so dramatic) and only after the third line did it dawn on me that it was my T-shirt. The panic mode quickly disappeared because I do not believe in coincidences and I think I was receiving a message to not worry and to only concern myself with things I can change and, to be the change I want to propagate. Of course I am known to numb feelings when I am in a space that scares me the most, and being alone right now had shaken me but I am so calm and I am not afraid. I will continue with.my music and folding of clothes until I feel sleepy.