Nicole, from your posts, it sounds like you have a Christian background.
Good thing my weirdness really progressed AFTER dating, marriage and half-dozen kids. Not sure how many ladies would be brave enough if meeting me today for a committed relationship with a short, religious, conservative libertarian that believes the EARTH IS FLAT.... among other things! My wife says that what attracted her most to me, was that I was not like anyone she had ever met... and that was when we were younger and I was just getting warmed-up! So keep being different, and just improve in those areas you know need some sprucing up.
I still get myself blackballed in family or potential friend relationships because of my un-ashamed open conversations pretty early on about conspiracy truth or world views/history I love to challenge (like UN Agenda 2030, virtues of Polygamy, Chem-trails, Co-vid lies, or the evils of Marxism in western society today). Some suggest I should discuss things that relate to most people (sport or the socially acceptable topics)... not the controversial, why... boing & pointless. Yes, this drives most away, but these are not the ones I am hoping to have in my families inner circle. It has payed off though, and those core relationships with the select few are wonderful and meaningful. Being in this small (sometimes lonely) minority, is also a huge blessing.
What I am getting to here is, keep diving in head first with meaningful philosophical discussions. No need to change or conform. If he sticks around and engages at your level, then you know you have a potential candidate. You need to be equally yoked with the one you plan to have a life with. As you spend time with like minded people, you will more likely connect with this potential relationship. All you need to do is be ready and willing. If you run away, or quit after a few tries, you may sabotaged the success that is right around the corner.
Sounds like you are on the right path now if you have a goal to become a wife and mom, just be ready for anything and a bit flexible, like that no more than 10 years older "requirement". This stipulation may not matter, but it also may if you meet a man you love that is 11 years your senior. Oh, and prayer is a must on things like this. This turned into a soapbox situation... Oh well, I get going and....
