Hello. This site is really amazing, and I'm glad I found it. I get a rush of hope seeing things like this, and need it terribly right now. I need support, and get some just knowing you all are here....that you exist helps, so thanks!! I have had a rough life with a lot of pain, and it seems to have only gotten worse over the recent years. My parents have recently passed, and I am alone in their house. I am very sick spiritually, and so mentally. I know what I need though, and I don't need allopathic/psych "medicine". I need nature's medicine, and support from my tribe. People who are aware of what's happening around us. People who don't just learn, but act accordingly to the knowledge they aquire.i have done this, and without support, and worse criticism, I had attempted suicide in September 2018. I'm not willing to participate in society as it functions, and since then I have been paralyzed by my own stubbornness, or unrealistic view of society. I know it's only unrealistic because of how detached people have become from reality, and nature. I'm not attracted to materials. I don't watch tv, and at this point im so hyper aware of the propaganda, that it disgusts me. I had spent a lot of time learning, unlearning, and changing my life accordingly. I can't just go back to enjoying sports, watching TV, and consuming poison, but don't have what it takes to pull myself out of depression without help. I never thought I'd find another person in real life that understands things the way I do, let alone is actively changing their life, but that has recently changed with some resources I've found. I'm looking for more resources. I need to see people in real life that I can see smile, and smile at. Get hugs from, ect to get me out of this state I'm in. Any suggestions, or resources will be appreciated. I live in the Southwest suburbs of Chicago in romeoville Illinois. thanks for looking, and existing 💚
