Hello,
I am a total novice as far as homesteading and permaculture goes. But I hope that, I offset my lack of knowledge, with a greater than average work ethic, a great deal of enthusiasm, a desire to learn as much as I can, and a genuine love of nature and all its beauty. I loved permaculture, before I knew there was a word for it, or people that have been living this way forever. Or rather, never really stopped. For as long as I remember I have yearned to live a simpler, more organic way of life. I wanted to be closer to nature, and all that entails. I am sure that I don’t have to tell anyone one here what that means. I just needed something that didn't leave me feeling empty at the end of the day, while surrounded by a bunch of stuff I didn’t need. But thought I wanted at the time because it would fill that big empty hole. That hole contains my yearning for something more, and my dissatisfaction with the material, currency based lifestyle that I lead. Not because it’s the way that I want to live, but because it is the way of the world. Honestly, the reason I have any use for money, is because everyone always seems to want it from me. Nothing in America is free people. OK. That was a rant. I can’t quite put it into words. It is easiest to say that, I have always felt out of time. As is I should have been born in simpler era.
I grew up a military brat, and then married a military man, so I have never had an opportunity to put down roots and build a place of my own. Or to live the kind of life I wanted for that matter. I spent a lot of years sacrificing my dreams to allow other people to follow theirs. I now find myself finally free, in my forties, and clueless about where to start.
I also have to admit that, I thought by this point in my life, I would have my own small, self-sustaining farm. Didn't Allen Saunders say that, " Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans". I can relate.
I am here just looking for friends. It would be great if I found my soul mate, but I am beginning to think that he isn’t out there. I have also come to realize that long lasting, enduring friendships are more important to me than romance, or electric chemistry. But, wouldn’t it be great to find all that in one person.
One of my main issues is that I can’t find anyone interested in the kinds of things I am. I have always been the “weird” one. No one that I know has any interest in gardening, sustainability, or living of the land. And the only chickens they want to deal with are golden brown, crispy, and on a plate. Wow, that sounds good. But, you know what I am getting at. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, but I know from experience that it leaves me wanting. Heck, you have read this far into my post, maybe I am weird. And who gets to decide that anyway?
So I have been lurking around this wonderful site for a couple of years, learning as much as I can. I have been sort of living vicariously through everyone here. I have never really had the nerve to post. I am somewhat of an introvert (work in IT lol). I do have social skills, thank you very much. I can carry on a conversation, I just never have the nerve to start the conversation. Or walk up to a group of strangers and say hello. That is what this feels like to me.
Please forgive me babbling, I talk and type the same way. I am in a rush to get it all out before my busy mind goes off on some tangent. I am the queen of the run-on sentence. But, hey this is me…like it, love it, or leave it.
It is nice to meet you all,
Michelle
P.S.
Can someone tell me how to delete a post? I want to be prepared!