I live in a tinyhouse with no indoor washroom. I simultaneously love and hate the fact that we did not put in a toilet. It's kind of like how you grumble about having to pull on your coat at midnight to walk an aging incontinent dog and then sigh with gratitude as you step out into a beautiful moonlit night that you would otherwise have missed. What I love - visiting nature several times a day and night instead of staying inside for hours on end, feeling my knees and my back and my haunches stretch out in order to squat, getting down near the ground several times a day and looking at weeds, grass, bugs while i pee, feeling the cool air on my nether parts -its refreshing!, and just plain being free of the mechanical toilet contraption with its wasteful water use...no flushing sounds and running water noises, instead - peaceful outdoor breezes. What I don't like, sometimes I forget and am wearing a poncho or some other flowy garment that gets into the pee stream. Its a drag but hey. Its just peee. It full of all kinds of positive traits. When its blizzarding outside I use a potty and then put it on the garden or compost the next day. It's so GOOD for the garden. I am not one of the 'let it dry' people though. I find I get smelly. So I carry toilet paper with me and throw it in the woodstove after or just put it in the house compost. I have never noticed it smelling up the house in the garbage or compost. Not at all.
If you can lean into the pros, some of those uncomfortable feelings will gradually fade. Allow your domestication to be challenged. Let your heart be wild. Let your pee go free.
