I'm a passionate advocate for living at a human scale and pace and staying connected to what Rudolf Otto called the Numinous, with others, with nature, and with myself.
I'm the author of Forest Bathing: The No-Nonsense Guide to Shinrin Yoku and several other books, and I've just set up a new Substack Newsletter called Mindful in Nature which will chronicle, in diary format, my efforts to permaculture my 3/4 acre property in Northern Indiana.
Jae Gruenke wrote:I have a sneaking suspicion that I'm feeling ill from mold toxins or something like that after spending a couple of hours last night shoveling wood chips out onto my land. I always sneeze and cough a bit when moving wood chips around, but this is another level.
The chips are from a linden tree my neighbor took out of his back yard. The pile has been sitting around on our patio for a couple of weeks, and the wood may have been sitting around a couple of weeks before being chipped.
Here's what happened: I shoveled, wheelbarrowed, and crawled around on hands and knees spreading the stuff until well after dark. When I came in, I blew my nose a couple of times and the snot was brown, and I ended up wiping my nose out for surprisingly long until the tissues were no longer brown. (Sorry for the gorey detail.) I could tell I had it in my lungs too, and I was coughing a bit and figured it would probably take a couple of days to work itself out. Otherwise I felt 100% fine.
But then during the night I woke up with a high fever--not sure exactly what it was, but I felt hot and freezing at the same time and was shaking, so I knew it was bad. It gradually improved but now, in early afternoon the following day, I'm still feverish and crushingly exhausted.
I would think I had just come down with something, but this same exact thing happened to me a couple of weeks ago, and although I can't be 100% sure, I think it was the night after shoveling the wood chips from the trailer to the patio. I recovered pretty quickly--much better the following day, though it took a few days to get back to normal.
So I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced anything like this. Am I crazy or could this be a toxin issue rather than a bug? Unfortunately we still have more wood chips piled on the patio, so if that's what made me ill, I'm going to have to work out how to deal with them safely.
Christopher Weeks wrote:I remember this scene from my childhood. I think I was six. I wanted to accrue some money in order to purchase some thing -- the details are lost in the mists of age, but the way my folks handled that kind of occurrence was to give me chores-for-cash on top of what was expected each day. So my dad suggested some chore -- maybe washing the dirty dishes or something. And I whined that it was too big a chore -- that it would take forever. I remember thinking how insurmountable it seemed. And my dad scoffed, saying it would take 30 minutes if I'd get to it. And I said "I know!" Thirty minutes was an overwhelming length of time to spend working to me at that time.
Remembering that helped me a lot when dealing with my own kids (who are 22 and 29 now). It doesn't provide a solution to parenting fatigue, but for me at least, it helped to empathize with them when their big feelings seemed a little overwrought and maybe it prevented that fatigue just a little bit.