Howdy Trace, I am sending prayers and good thoughts out for you and your family today.
I lost my big brother many years ago. He taught me how to draw, how to hunt, about raising chickens, how to build a house, (we built two together), He had so much going on in his life. I found it very gratifying when I saw how many people showed up at his funeral. He was loved by many. He left a wife and two sons behind. It is very hard for a parent to lose a child. My folks were hit hard by the news.
I am of the unwavering opinion that there is something/somewhere else, other than this earthly plane, that we go to after we are done here. No doubt in my mind and that is what makes things easier. I will see him again.
Since then, I have lost both of my folks and many friends and relatives. Again, I will see them all again. My folks and my brother, as well as one of my best friends, have sent me signs after they passed. Things that were so out of the ordinary and so specific to our relationship, that I know it was them.
So, I say to you, be open to the signs, have faith that you will see him again. Carry on and make him proud of you!