Craig Weiser

A quiet piece of land, a garden, and a hut.  That's my aging homesteader's goal.  In my late 50s, I still negotiate with my back each day.  Lots of stuff to get done on the land.  My back and I usually agree on the type of fulcrums, winches, and 2x4 scaffolds I come up with to cover for my physical decline.  I gave up my plans to change the world long ago, and have given up all the "some day" hopium that plagued my 40s, which were both far worse on my back than sacks of concrete.

Just do it.  Don't get bogged down when things fail, as they will.  Give yourself time to think about it.  Rely on your intuition first, before YouTube.  No one can teach you wisdom.  Wisdom can only arise within you.

My dream is my liberation from greed and hatred.

This is a question for soils scientists re how microbes break things down.  But you can ask Google AI, which has access to all of that...  In the meantime, worry is bad for the heart, while plants love nitrogen.  So I think you should continue what you have been doing.

My failure is not doing it this year.

Most people own their properties, as this poll shows, but they don't really own them, because they must pay property taxes.  That's like paying rent.  Those who don't own but rent pay no property taxes but they pay rent.  So whoever gets to have access to land must pay rent to somebody.  We get hung up on who we're paying the rent to but we all must pay the rent.

You must take risks for a chance at what you want. Just do it.