Alana,
It has been some months since you started this thread from your post.. and it was all interesting to read. I hope you are doing well and finding inner peace in God's plan.
So I have a similar situation.. in my mid forties, but feel and look young, with a striking head of hair.. I joined a spiritual community at age 21 and lived there for 25 years! We kept Shabat, read the Bible twice a day, we ate vegetarian.. or Kosher.. I lived outside Jerusalem for close to two years.. learned Hebrew pretty good.. oh and belief in Yashua (Jesus) was very important! It would be a long post if I explained the beliefs of the community.. but hope to one day! So about 7 years ago, while taking the PDC and then soon after becoming a permaculture teacher. I visited my parents in middle Tennessee, and noticed problems with the house, and it became a big concern... at the same time some drastic changes in the community started.. basically my permaculture passion was not well received.. composting kitchen scraps was an unwelcome chore.. I was a total odd ball.. single all that time, and most of the other members recently married.. so I decided to move back to Tennessee and use my permaculture skills to prevent the frequent floods from causing more damage to my childhood home, which is were my parents reside. They like permaculture, love raising chickens, gardening, and composting.. even compost toilets they could be open to.. I had plans of transforming their place into a Permaculture School.. and my progress is going good... BUT being alone and the desire to share life with a "permaculture" someone, and become a parent, and maintain and build on my spiritual life... well.. it lead me to this thread.. and I am replying, (on the Shabbath..) and understanding you might be in a totally different situation from when you originally posted this..
It takes such energy.. being single and looking for a good fit .. I often feel like not trying.. just letting the Spirit guide me.. I pray to be lead, and find just being in constant glorification and Thanksgiving gets me through each moment into the next.
I also think compost toilets are problem solvers! I hope to build one soon, but believe the best soil building combo is charcoal and human pee, soaked for a few days or weeks... I started to make children songs about this.. lol!
Best wishes in your journey and will keep you in my prayers!
Geo Robert Rembert
