Howdy, While going thru the threads today, I noticed your "Hello!", (and since I just "outed" myself as a voracious reader (but never a post-er) until today (!) Feeling light as a feather with my newfound emergence from the shadows, I feel like I
should post here as well and say, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I think, (and I'm sure there is some high-tech-y way to show this) Paul & Co know that there are thousands (hopefully tens of thousands) of folks who are reading and digesting this wonderful information and movement towards
world domination.
I can relate to your post, (and admittedly, fell victim to the "please be kind, I'm a relative newbie" introduction when posting myself mere minutes ago) but I think that, even though it is easy at times to get overwhelmed, (both to the vast amount of information to digest/the expertise/development towards ones' goals-whatever they might be) of some members, I find that as I devour each page/subject, I see that 95% of people in this community, are incredibly open and welcoming to others who embrace a complimentary path. (I say "complimentary" with a nod to the fact, it is important for everyone to remember that what works for them, might not work, or even be a goal or on another persons radar-and that is OK.)
You stated in your first post, you're a homesteader- that's awesome.- That is a big accomplishment in itself- just getting there (from, what I hypothesize, was a more "citysteader/townsteader/suburbansteader" life at some point, and I will put my money on the fact, THAT (which you already have accomplished) took commitment and earnest behavior. and That's the type of commitment, that I believe lends itself to the development one needs to embark upon to fully commit oneself to the world domination Paul speaks of- that is the most important thing.
In today's "daily-ish" email there was a link to the "frugality" section, and I read a post (that appears now is 3 years old) by an individual who said they were "stuck in the system"- There was a handful of replies, ranging from, what I felt was a bit of a "tough love" approach, encouragement, to telling the young guy (he was 19) to file for bankruptcy, camp for a year, and move to a foreign country. I was happy to see, towards the end, a veteran of the site, was thoughtful
enough to state that
permaculture (whatever that means to you) is a journey, and it can be attained in stages, or in different ways, and often the "end in site" (if you have one, btw is there one? ha! that
thread would be 9 years long) is something that is unique to the person, and that goes for all- I think that can be applied even to individuals who are "in it together"-whether that means a couple, an
intentional community, co-op, what have you)
Though it might have a place in another thread, (and sorry for that if it is, or feel free to move) but I felt compelled to post, as I nearly did the other day (for the first time mind you, emerging from the voyeur shadows) after spending, a somewhat ridiculous amount of time/hours, reading through the various PEP1,
Gapper, Ant threads (as I really want to get a feel for this community, I think it is important to be 'on the same page' and to put that effort in.... So I was reading all the threads on various developments of programs, 'problems', strategies, etc) and once I got to the sea of posts regarding the various levels of "attainment"/merit badges, certification(s) proposed for various educational models-my eyes began to glaze over, and I started to feel like the alternate pitcher for the bad news bears, who really wants to play, but so far, is just sitting on the bench in the uniform....I doubt that was anyone's intent, and I realize I was eavesdropping (in a sense) of seasoned folks discussing some kind of pedagogical format in which to, at the end of the day, assist others in their journey- but that being said, I started to feel like "whoa..."
That being said, it isn't a "bad" thing whatsoever,( and in fact, it is a very *good* thing, most of the time) to set the "bar set high"- It often can 'separate the wheat from the chaff' -persay, And concerning those you want to be alongside you, leading a charge for this world domination that we speak/read about in this forum, it becomes very important. I like, and respect this stance I see permeating (ha, bad pun) from Paul in general- (especially regarding listening to the podcasts, etc) It is necessary, especially when there is a commitment of time/energy/$$$ from one individual to another. I like this, so yes, I bought the mega cache of podcasts, and I find, I read every thread, even though some, I might as well be reading Japanese. (and I don't read/speak Japanese)
I was moved to post this, as I've noticed a fair share of newcomers, popping up here and there, and showing similar self consciousness(or even apologizing, as if almost for existing/reaching out) in beginning their journey. Since I kind of did the same thing, I thought... "wait a second..."- stop the boat.
I would say this is a less than awesome, symptom of the "old society/machine" viewpoint/ie that icky "box" (that most of us really aren't into, ran away from, are trying to escape, etc) that easily keeps people (sometimes forever)from stopping the cycles that are unsatisfying (or they realize they don't agree with ideology wise) and embracing/dipping a toe into new,
sustainable, satisfying, and universally "better" waters....from taking hold. and that sucks! let's all agree that sucks!-but I think it is easy fall victim to that, even for a moment, and though I am sure it gets easier as one develops their plan(s) and gains tools/insights (from
experience, trial and error, or community-what have you) to ignore, but the "knee jerk" is certainly there. Most people in my orbit think Ive gone looney for this "permaculture thing", and I'm certainly excited and inspired-but I still get that little
jerk of self consciousness, and I'm not afraid to say so, especially if it helps another person, whose feels knee deep in sh*t, and it's not the good, organic kind.
People (including myself, jeez!) shouldn't feel they have to apologize for anything when emerging with their "Hi, I'm into this too, I am doing a,b,c, myself, curious about this, this is my story, hello world!!"- I've spent a respectable (imho) amount of time reading through and experiencing the content on on the site/members/Paul, and I've noticed this several times! (even in this post, "I'm new, please be kind!") so I felt like speaking up, and saying, not only to you, but also should probably stand in front of the mirror and say it to myself (like a mantra of sorts) It's pretty darn wonderful to arrive at this point here, and if you want something for yourself and your life, and you really want it, you will find your permie-legs and run soon enough-in whatever vein or level of what "works" for you than you decide or arrive at.
I do believe that when you stop learning-you die, and that even the person (and hopefully, they are evolved enough to agree themselves, seeing the quality of folks on this forum) even those individuals on this forum, the ones who have a million "apples", posts, their own thing going on/a successful situation (whatever that is)would agree with this belief.
I liked that Karen post asking about your homestead and asking for photos. I'd love to see those too!
As a person who also just took the "major plunge" (in buying my own property/finally getting to do what I have only been reading about for 4 years) I am very interested in what others have going on- period- those who are in the beginnings of getting their property "in shape"- to others who have been on the "train" (would it be better if I said "bicycle"? ha ha) and are using large earth moving equipment with aplomb. ..........That's currently not me, but I hope that soon it will be me.
I think many are in my boat. - So lets go down this river, and not scream too much when we hit rapids. - because all beings being hit rapids, sometimes I think, (and concerning myself- I know this is certainly true, though I have moments, where I am stubborn to admit it) regardless of where you're at, sometimes you just wanna curl up in a ball under the covers, or continue commuting to work, or buying all your produce at the whole paycheck foods.......... I am coming to '
permaculture world', at a point in my life, where I had previously, at least in the general, societal "sense" edging up at 30 yrs old, just "arrived" (that's the machine talking, not really me, I was miserable) in a field, worked my butt off my entire adult life, accomplished some "stuff"-and now I find myself here.... all the time....everyday.... ha
I will say, it is an interesting feeling and place to be in development wise (in every sense)
Definitely humbling.
There are weird moments of
ego, (yes I totally admit it. ha) because I worked 16 hours a day at my vocation that occupied me/fed me/propelled me, (which I admit, at huge moments of my life, I was really passionate about, but then I found.........hold your breath.......... I changed. (Wow, people change? ha) and all of a sudden what I was doing, though fascinating/cool/well paying (blah blah) wasn't as cool to me as...............making my own
compost and growing things from seed.)
It still feels somewhat alien, but mostly AWESOME, to take a deep breath, and ignore every convention/the past, and think: YES, I really do want to make compost via "The Berkeley Method" than costume design an HBO show based in the 1880s, (my old field was an industry expert on historical fashion/costume/lifestyle primarily from the Georgian period to WWII-yes, rather "niche"-ha, I guess I have always been "eccentric") but despite, the responsibilities of still doing some consulting, (and always may, I liked what I did, but I just am really into "THIS" (the
permie universe this)
I just know that *this* lifestyle is what I want, despite the occasional, and sometimes frequent (depending on the task) moments here and there, or some distractions (especially after being immersed in a project in my other field) where I feel that "machine"tug, (or perhaps, which is understandable, the lure/ (or sometimes necessity) of the old paycheck/work schedule)-
and 'the tug' really torments me during those depths of momentary despair over some thing like.... the wind blew all the seeds I planted away, and since I had the seeds for 4 years and propagated them every time, I'm really upset.... (and no one around me gets why I am really bummed, since they think I've kinda lost my mind and "want to become Amish or something" (at least a lot of my friends in my former home of NYC)
Yet, overall, especially with little injections of positivity and cool ideas, that I usually get from this website/forum... I get over myself, and once again, feel cozy in that this is the life I'd rather attempt/have (depending on the situation) regardless.
I can relate to Tina, Avalon, (and countless others) in that something that I just planned for several years, is now "real"- I'm on the land, I'm "in it"-finally- here we go.
SO-no matter that the cruel high desert wind blew my seeds away, or now finally looking at my land and trying to "figure out what the hell to do, zone-wise", or eyes glazing over at certain topics I feel are 10 years away (or maybe never)
This life/these ideas/community is..........just what I want for myself......and so do you, and how cool, (whoever "you" are)
That is mighty simple, (and I certainly have typed a lot of characters to get to that point. (ha)- but it is powerful, and honestly, it is beautiful.
It's great to be immersed and experience others who want that powerful, beautiful, experience (at all levels and in all walks of life) and are on a similar wavelength.
p.s. I really like that 99 percent of the people on this site are nice. nice is so.....nice