20M looking for a female interested in building a life on some neglected Appalachian land.

I do not have a homestead, nor do I live completely self-sufficient and off-grid. However, I do want to be! Thats what I am looking for, someone who will just help me build something. It's not easy on your own, sometimes it seems impossible having no one to talk to.

A little about me:
I have always lived in rural Appalachia, Southern Ohio, in my youth I was taken away to the city and I got to see just how horrible people are. I got to experience the corruption of society on a personal level and I fought tooth and nail to get myself and my little siblings back to our home. I was very mature at a young age. I went to public school and eventually went to online school and graduated 2 grades early so that I could spend more time doing things I like (running off into the woods). I spent no time worrying about college after watching all my classmates struggle getting jobs and throwing themselves into debt, it seems like a bad deal. When everything got shut down all the classmates I knew could not do much of anything... I build websites for people and that is how I get most of my income. Though I love the outdoors, there is nothing I like more than sitting down at my computer at nightfall and listening to some electronic music and playing some retro games. I am a very religious person and I spend a lot of time praying and meditating. I have a lot of animals, cats, rabbits, turtle, and more. My grandfather passed away recently and I took on a number of cattle within 4 months I took some land that had been left sitting for 40 years and threw up some fences and packed as many cows in there as I could, because my grandfather meant so much to me I did what I could. My family means everything to me and it is no exaggeration to say without them I would have died several times over.

What I would like in a partner:
More than anything someone who would stay with me. It would help me a lot if I met someone with some experience growing food, taking care of lots of animals, thriving off the land, skills that only a permaculture lass would have. However, more than anything I need someone who will provide me with the emotional support that I need, and that is a lot of emotional support! I have been called "too clingy", "socially backward", and "over protective". I have been in several relationships, but not once with someone who wants to help me. I do not know everything about permaculture and I need to learn a lot, so we could learn together if need be. I need to be with someone who thinks like me and understands me. I also need to be with someone who will understand my spirituality. I also need to be with someone who does not need children right away, someone who can be happy with just the two of us for a time (and a lot of animals). I have a lot of responsibilities and I do a lot to support my family. I am primarily looking for someone within a similar age as me, but if you are older that could be interesting. I am also looking for someone who could move in with me and meet my family. I like the land that I live on, and I love the hills and forests around here.

Curious who is here and I am also open to making friends.