rose macaskie wrote:
Finding the rubber doll satifying is hard to imagine, i like the verbal comunication with people i don't feel very satrisfied about sex unless i can at least imagine it will lead to a verbal comunication. I dont like sex atall enough to bother if it is not going to lead to verbal comunication, unless ifeel obliged to bother. THere is quite a ong time when you feel that things wil go verbal so you go on bimagining a good relationship though you are not having one. then there is the surety it wont ever be verbal, total disallusion, harsh reality puts up its ugly head.
What is it with girls in rural areas . I think it is just that theire aren't jobs for girls in rural areas when they are young before they marry and can get a bit for themselves from the hens, eggs, or butter making .Traditionally women earned a bit of money for themselves on a farm.
I have hated being away from my family. i was brought up to think that people forget their childhood, you always hear adults say, oh i can't remember that long ago, maybe they just didn't want to talk of it. I was bought up to feel you just grew up and left everything behind, the right attitude for the young of a country that had, before my generation, sent so many young to the colonies. I found that i cared a lot about all the things i had been used to as a child and went on carring all my adult life about losing them, so maybe its not so cool for girls to move away though they thin they can take it .and if adult life were talked of in a different way they would think twice about leaving .
I have seen more cases of men taking women off to their home towns than vice a versa, so maybe women have always had to bare the seperation. In traditioanl places it is usually the women who have to go to the mens parents house .
It is usual to talk as if women were softer than men, i begin to think that men have it softer than women in many ways. rose
rose macaskie wrote:
Even sadder than the knowledge that your husband does not find you interesting enough to talk to, something that just stays there as a depressing reality, and you talk to him just so he does not feel like a bore, is that he is that he is in fact trying to keep you in your place it is a stance he is purposefully not talking to you . it is hard to face up to the fact that those around you have tried to do for you. There was a film of a girl who discovers her father had been in the SS it is a bit that sort of discomfort and shame that you have to face contemplating this sort of reality. I married a beast and i have been foolhardy. . a cruel system has been put in place by the person you are meant to be loyal too.