I have had anxiety as long as I can remember. Mania, depression, fainting spells, stomach ulcers, blah blah blah, all from anxiety. I moved off grid 6 years ago with my family, and it was the hardest and best thing I ever did.
I say hardest because transitioning from clueless town folk to somewhat skilled homesteaders is insanely difficult anyway. It was incredibly taxing on my body with the anxiety making my head spin and my body ache.
It was the best thing because it has opened my eyes to the roots of my issues. When you are responsible for getting your own water and heat, without electricity, you begin to rethink what is important and you can start to let things go.
I am still just beginning to heal, but at least I finally feel like I'm going in the right direction. I have figured out how to feed myself without a refrigerator and still eat the good foods I need to heal my guts from the anxiety damage. I also now am able to work on my issues that caused the problems to begin with. I have so much time to think in the quiet outdoors while doing chores. And I have all the space and resources I need to do anything creative I can dream up.
Chronic illness makes things more difficult no matter how you live. I do not, by any stretch, speak for everything, but this lifestyle has helped me tons. It was worth the stress of the change to get to where we are now. 6 years and we are starting to feel like we're getting the hang of it. But, my boyfriend reminds me daily that time doesn't matter and we're always moving forward.
I hope I'm not rambling too bad, but this life can be amazing and it's worth the struggle. It is difficult to put into words.