Hi Thomasd. Welcome.
Sounds pretty clear. Looks like you're getting clear on lots of stuff. <g>
What do you love? Places, doing, whatever. Love
enough to not worry about "wasting" five years time into it? Or, what are you looking for? How you gonna get the search on and be smart about what you find?
New directions. I never been divorced, but something similar. Might be a few years that the working part of you is what holds the rest coherent and usable. If you know what I mean. So take care of that "working man" part of you. Help it out be tending toward stuff you love. To do. You got more to offer that way, too.
Best luck.
Rufus