Dreamweaver

I will be 29 next month. I have posted here  a time or two over the past 6 years. When I first posted, I was an inspired visionary, living out of my car, and dreaming of the possibilities as I fell in love with life again and the idea of permaculture. Almost 5 years ago, I bought a few acres and began to study in earnest. Today, I am quietly building off-grid food forest village retreats for a living. Truly, I am living my dreams.
Consumed by my work, I have spent almost all of the past 4 years single and romantically alone. Part of me had hoped that I would meet her when I was poor and struggling, but alas here I am. I have everything in life I want except an amazing woman to share it with and perhaps a more deeply united community and world.
We have begun planting food forests in sacred geometry shapes and patterns, and have found a way to be well-funded doing so.
I dance, write songs, poetry, make plant medicines, I am a builder, a traveler, a guardian, a dreamer, martial artist and weapons specialist.... A protective father and friend to all the life around me....

I imagine Her as a young woman. Perhaps 25. I imagine her as intelligent and observant, nurturing, a combination of fierce and gentle......

I am very open to thoughts especially those of relevant, experienced elders. If you are a woman who met a man such as me, I would enjoy hearing your story.

No offense, but if you've grown old alone, or engage in lgbtq poly communities, I am not particularly interested in yours.

At this point in time, I must be exactly where you were five years ago. I’m 25 and have just bought my dream property and I’m so excited at the thought of turning it into my own secret paradise, tucked away and out of the mainstream. I can’t wait to spend all day every day turning my beautiful forest into a homestead. But I think our only difference is that I’m kind of expecting to grow old alone. I don’t know why... I just can’t bring myself to settle. I don’t fear the idea, nor do I welcome it. It just seems likely. Rationally, I know that humans need deep and meaningful connections, but in today’s society they feel so hard to find. So I’ve decided to throw myself into this life project and if I die an old maid, so be it. I’ll certainly have at least 3 dogs, some cats, chickens and hopefully even a goat by then, so I won’t be totally alone lol.

Here’s the funny thing I guess. I just joined Permies today and came across your post in two different sections. The first time, it was in a random generated list and I didn’t click it. The second time I saw the title, in this forum specifically, I figured the universe was telling me to look. I’ve snooped your other posts, and imagine my disappointment in seeing that you’re in WA, when I just left Seattle two months ago. I wonder if we ever crossed paths. I would have loved to find your tribe while I was in the area, but — oh well. My path leads to upstate New York, to a tiny town beside a river, quite literally thousands of miles away.

You seem like a genuine and caring person, with a deep love and reverence for the land. You don’t sound bitter or broken, but rather open to life’s possibilities. I think it’s beautiful what you’ve created and I hope you find the missing puzzle piece to share it with one day.

Best of luck dream weaver (:

Forgot to say ~ Happy *early* Birthday!

Hi Melody,
   Thanks for the response. Part of me does feel like I may grow old alone, but the greater part of me does not accept that.
   I just took on a project in Texas, and so I currently live in Washington and Texas. The world has never felt so small.if you'd like to stay in touch and get to know each other, I am interested. If we click I might come visit.
    Can I request a pic?

what's your email? we'll chat there.