Feeling underpowered, not overwhelmed

I’m just keeping up with a longer schedule than I would like.

It’s been the longest beginning, so long as any beginning includes all parts before commencing the actual plan. The false starts, the busy life, and the not meant to be. It has made for one long beginning of my plan to develop a sustainable property.

I attended my PDC in Southern Missouri in 2018. It was incredible and left me with so many tools to complete my goal. But life got too busy, and as I had finally begun in 2023  the work on version 1.0 on my 3.75 acres, life threw a curve ball and I found myself living on a small city lot with no good exposure. But it didn’t kill the dream.

I wanted to take a holistic approach to my eventual property and have always had an interest in building science to go along with my career as a pm building homes. I learned various methods to increase efficiencies in homes as well as alternative construction methods and materials. I made many mock up plans of ultra efficient homes built as sustainably as possible. So I thought the next step of the property would be crop and livestock management design to create as efficient of a water, energy, and resource system designed to work with the land around it. This is where I am at a weakness. I have read many different ideas and systems of livestock and crop management, but my personal experience has been limited to bees, a few peach trees, one of which did actually fruit before borers took it down. I’ve also had chickens and ducks with success but gardens destroyed by cats and deer. My cats thought bulbs were buried treasure.

Fast forward to early 2026 when life was seemingly going well, but I was no where near my ultimate goal, and didn’t feel I was living my life in alignment with myself. So I changed it. I had always gone on vacation to Arkansas to visit family and enjoy all the lakes and rivers and trails. My sister and parents now live in Arkansas and so I found a job, bought a small camper, adopted a somewhat crazy 6 month old border collie beagle mix, and relocated to Northwest Arkansas.

I have a few properties I’m looking at and I’m finally starting to put together both the phasing of the project and overall design. The property will be around 7-10 acres. The phasing is important because I intend to move my camper onto the property and live in it while I build the home and property out. This will be fully off grid, assembled in phases.

The amount of work ahead is intimidating as I will be managing projects during the week and squeezing in what I can on weekends and evenings.

So I’m wondering if I find a partner or maybe two partners to tackle this endeavor. I’ve rebuilt a couple of homes solo previously, working evenings and weekends to complete one. I’m confident in the building aspect but the greenhouses and livestock? Could I manage those as well? Is my timeline pushed too far out solo, or could I find the people that would have an interest in collectively working through design, build, and implementation of a holistic system?

If I did stay solo where would I go about getting feedback on my overall design, which forum would that fit best? Or is it best to break it down into the individual aspects that would make up the overall system?

Overthinking as usual I’m sure, but the project manager in me doesn’t like rework.