Nikolaj Vinicoff wrote:
a) (Also my brain) "What a stupid idea... .?"
b) ....YOU SUDDENLY HAVE A VISION and you can't afford to wait 30 minutes until the rain stops.
c) ....perhaps it has something to do with finding a balance between analysis and action,
d) ....it is a personal story of mine which has led to a pretty epic small scale system of a rice, swales planted to multiple fruit and support trees, ground covers, neighboured by a future veggie garden (beds made but not fully planted) and a banana/papaya/coconut circle topped up with palm mulch.
Permit me to wax psychological on a cold, snowy, northern Minnesota Sunday afternoon..... ? ;-)
In (a) you reveal the presence the "inner critical voice" that many of us share and which so often is assumed to have its origins in our own independent experiences. But more typically that voice came from another....a parent/caregiver....in efforts to 'shame' you away from certain behaviors. That now carries forward into your adult life where you will find many opportunities to shame yourself again over efforts to simply try something new.
Not content with fate providing the right situation to prove you correct in that shame, you take the worst time (b) to attempt to plant the rice, nudging your efforts towards failure so that you can actually feel justified in the self-depricating state.
As you begin to realize how the interplay between (a) and (b) can lead to overthinking and subsequent inertia (Analysis Paralysis), you begin to embrace the better, more realistic and fruitful idea that a balance between careful planning and diving in with the shovel (c) is an appropriate and time-tested response to problem solving. Ultimately, your efforts lead to ....
(d) the epic garden and forest that you have nurtured and soon will nurture you!
You join countless many on this road to permie realization and self-actualization..... Glasses raised to all of us on that path! ('clink')