posted 2 years ago
There was only once where I thought I needed counseling, but because laws are changing, I would never go.
In my case my wife had left me, was keeping my kids from me, and had taken everything from the house except my dog. Dating was not going well, then my dog got sick; to the point where I had to put her down. Growing up on a farm, while I realize a lot of people can't do that themselves, I can. After we had gone for the long one-way walk, I am looking at my now departed dog, and just walked away. I had a backhoe so I could have buried her, but I just didn't. It was just this whole big nothingness inside.
The only thing that bothered me about that whole encounter was that I never once cried. Not a tear, and that downright scared me. I should have felt something.
But unfortunately, laws are changing. If you get the wrong kind of medications, or a counselor cites you; you are under red flag warnings so you cannot conceal carry, or buy new guns. It is kind of foolish because it does not change the fact that a person might have a dozen of them anyway, but it really ends up being this silly vortex of nonsense because in a nation with 400 million guns, we want those people to get mental help and not have laws that trip them up from getting help.
But like most things, for me, time moved on, and life started again, and feelings returned, but I will never forget that strange feeling of feeling nothing that day.