Hi Kavonn, welcome to Permies!
You might benefit from researching human rewilding. When you do, you'll find a bunch of different topics, most of them at least related, but I mean that term the way these folks do:
https://rewildu.com/what-is-rewilding/
As you find websites and videos on the topic, you'll see there are an awful lot of people wearing synthetic high-performance outdoor gear telling you to be angry at civilization. That always strikes me as obviously silly, but I try to just filter out their agenda and not be manipulated as I read or watch. Take the wisdom you can glean from each source and try to do better than they are.
Also, if you have a spot where you can grow a garden, do that. Start growing your own food and learning the constellation of skills around that. Even on a small scale, it's an affirmative act that is transgressive to the forces that want to tell you you're just an economic cog.