I cannot give advice on where to go from here; I can only give suggestions and ideas to you.
You're human and have a mind: only you know what path to take for yourself. The key is finding out what that is. There was an article in the newspaper a while back about the biggest challenge for people growing up in the USA is and how it is an unspoken challenge that many people simply may not be aware of. Struggling to find out who you are and where you want to fit into the world and how you will find or make a place for yourself in the world is one of the biggest challenges people age 18-30 face in the USA, according to the author of that article.
I kind of agree with the author on that one because that's kind of the dilemma:
-Get raised by parents -Grow Up (somewhat) -Get some credentials and a work history -Find a job and keep it -You're Free! -Now what???
I'm currently beginning the "get some credentials and a work history" part of my journey, and to help make my journey more fulfilling, I did a lot of soul searching while filling out applications for college last year and probably had at least one or two existential crises. But now, I think I have an idea of what I want to do with my life and how I am going to get there. Of course I can't have every step planned, which is why it is staying as mostly guidelines and not a strict plan to follow.
Riccardo Ricky wrote: feeling that most farms here but not all are just looking for cheap labor
Yeah.... Lots of places are looking for cheap labor..... You kind of just have to set a standard for yourself and
try 100 things and see what works out.
If you're interested,
Charley McDowell, made posts on permies recently about
looking for a caretaker and
tiny home parking in Northern California. He is a veteran builder and is willing to help people build a tiny home if they do not have one to park on his land. I think this is a great opportunity and may be just what you were looking for! Charley McDowell is looking for people to take care of his land for him, and if they do a nice job, he is willing to let the person(s) be permanent caretakers.
Craig Dobbylyu is another permies user, and he is looking for help on
7 acres in Maine.
There are many more opportunities to be found in the
WWOOF/organic farm volunteers/ opportunities subforum at permies.com. On permies, you can also check out the
travel ideas thread to see if any of the suggestions I've listed there are useful to you.
I'm currently beginning my journey, so I'm in a similar boat as you. Please feel free to purple mooseage me or talk more on the forums.