Thank you for the reply Dave, i appreciate the suggestions & im surprised that you on a similar kind of journey.
As i mentioned being lost with my path, i meant it in a way that im lost in what my next steps are going to be, i really want to live a life where i can be self reliant considering food,
water,
energy, etc. Over the years i have been on and off with Jobs,been called every name under the sun for not working, researching in between to try and find out what it is i want to do seeing as school didnt teach me anything considering this.
While researching i found out alot about what is truly going on today & i decided that i want to live a life which doesnt contribute to the mess that is currently going on.
Attending the
Permaculture introductory course last year was the best thing i felt that i had done because of what it had taught me, my plans after that were to volunteer then get a
PDC then acquire some land.
Since the course i struggled to get the picture through to my parents about what i was planning to do, eventually they "kind of" understood that i would eventually need some land to carry on further & my father had said he would help me get some land once i had volunteered.
Unfortunately the volunteering didnt go as expected, i came back home & suggested that i just go straight into a
PDC and get some land to start small with.
I had spoken to quite a few people around the country about where the best place would be to start up & unfortunately my father didnt want to know anything about this, he suggested one place which was quite close to home and that was it. I couldnt have a proper conversation about it cause as always he is too busy.
After all that i mentioned volunteering overseas because of how i felt used with hosts around this country and i was immediately told that im talking crap about the hosts around here.
So after being at home for another 5 months after i tried volunteering now all of a sudden i am told that Permaculture is an excuse and i
should go get a job.
Even though i would love to try 100 things, i feel i cant, i feel like i had been given one chance & thats it.
On the other hand i could probably manage to convince them to go work overseas but i feel if i do then there's not really any use of me coming back, also largely due to fact of how this country is turning out to be.
Ill definitely take a look at the links you posted, they look really interesting and like you said it might just be what im looking for.
I apologize if the whole story came out too long but i tried summarizing it as much as possible, once again thank you again for your suggestions Dave.