posted 20 hours ago
The thought of my niece, the one I tried doing online lessons with and failed, is gnawing at me. Like I mentioned earlier, I feel like an opportunity to change her life is slipping away. I decided to visit the donors to find out if they are open to giving a child a second chance to sit for her exams if she fails the first time. They said it is not possible, but my niece will be helped to start a business to help herself earn an income. I found children actually applying for grants for them to get some money to start something up as they wait for their results. It's a relief to know that the organisation stays in the children's lives even after they are done with school, but I know starting a business is more than just money, so I am excited but I am not any less worried. What I am doing in case she gets a grant is to find out how she can grow in the business world, which I am learning as well, without losing money that is meant to be her seed in business.
Organising the trip to my niece's province has had me face a number of challenges that I have. To begin with, it took me over a month to put down words to be able to talk to the donor, and to be honest I was just lucky that the person I talked to seems to be a genuinely kind person. I mumbled and stuttered through my chat with him, requesting an appointment. Then secondly the happened meeting time coincided with a time that a serial killer was in Guruve. I was keeping away from social media or news, for reasons I mentioned in my earlier posts. When I got to Guruve I dropped off from the bus where I was told to, which was just before the township. There was some tall grass along the road's sides, and there were not as many people around. Still, the thought of the serial killer had not crossed my mind. I am naturally a very anxious and timid person in a new environment, so I am not counting this as abnormal feelings in this case. I saw a young boy and asked for directions to the school I wanted to go to, and he showed me. I walked a few steps from him, and I heard a voice from behind me calling out to me. When I looked back, there was a man making a sign for me to stop. He was coming out of the tall grass. Every sketchy detail of the serial killer that was scattered in my brain gathered and became very clear. It was now the focal thought. I went towards the shops and tried to blend in, but he came for me. I did not say anything to anyone, I couldn't. I just walked so closely to some woman, but this did not worry the guy. He continued to chat with me.
Everyone else went their way, and it was just the two of us now. I was so tense I could feel how stiff my body was. Just after we entered the school gate, the men looked at me straight in the face and said firmly, "I am Moses Mangeza", and his tone was as if I was meant to know the name. I literally shivered because the one name from Guruve that was so famous was the serial killers name, and I didn't know it. There was no one anywhere near us it was a school holiday. I just asked softly if I was supposed to know the name. He did not give me a straight answer. He was too drunk. It was such a relief when a group of girls came out from a block of classrooms. He walked me until I got to the men I was supposed to meet. It turned out that this guy walked me all the way so that I could pay him a dollar for his kindness. Instead of being grateful I was so angry at him for making me go through what I went through, and secondly I had absolutely no money to spare, so I didn't see why I had to pay for a service I didn't request for or needed.
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