I finally got an old gate to keep the plastic pressed close to the wall, and really open the space up.
A friend visited ( I am fully committed to move away from self isolation), as I was working and she was down and didn't see the point of trying so hard to make things work any more.
First off power lines were stolen the previous night, it's like people are losing care for each other more and more, crime rate has increased and is making the environment really uneasy. Her aunt had invited her to Germany for a visit, to help her
experience a different life and norms, for her to get inspired in projects she is working on and her visa was denied. She was mainly angry for the fact that she was told she could reapply, but she would have to change what she submitted about herself, because her information did not guarantee her return, in other words she has to lie and she did not believe this trip was worth that. She might be disappointed with the system but also there are those who succeeded to go for their visits and never came back. It worked for them, but they have no idea how many people are now being affected by their choice of being untrustworthy. For her it felt like being Zimbabwean is a curse of some sort, if you stick to a certain set of moral values.
I agree with her that we are in a very bad state, but I still think we can initiate a positive change if we concentrate on what we have control over in the now. She had no idea I had this projects going, she asked me to prove my crazy green house idea works, otherwise why are we even trying. I will say the pressure has just escalated to a whole new level. I cannot guarantee anything can happen unfortunately, but I really want this to work because if we have
enough good things happening, it will keep the hope and faith in the good alive. My friend is particularly strong willed and believes we always have a choice, it helps to have her around when her levels are high.