Post 875
Day 125 [timing]
2023.10.07 saturday, morning entry
The principle of moving it forward
A mile is great
And sometimes
A foot is greater
Simply because
Activation
energy
Varies day by day
This is the human
experience, yes?
So many things vary
And consistency can be
High value
Variety is high value
So BOTH are important :)
What am I even taking about?!
Specifically—The goal/aim/target is to replace the valve cover gasket, on Old Blue (the minivan).. it’s a medium deep task so I’ve been intimidated by it.. until yesterday.. the voice says “just have fun with it..!! It’s all good..!!”
And what I hear/interpret is “don’t worry about the cost in money/energy/time.. this is an exercise of spending lavishly on something that brings me joy.. it’s okay to ignore the
haters (from within or outside).. follow the joy..”
OKAY.
yesterdays journey was a breakthrough moment for me. I stumbled and fumbled and did a thing that seemed so NOT PERFECT.. wow.. big deal dez lol :) every single day awake to fail miserably because judgements fade, while persistence appears ridiculous.. I judged myself before I even started; the thoughts in my head did at least.. some call it a lack of confidence.. I think of it as a slower style/rhythm.. and that’s okay.
Learning to breathe
Learning to flow
Basically 1/10 steps is done for old blu. And that’s better than 0 ;) keep being and keep reaching for the dream.. if it feels silly sometimes then dare be silly about it.. this past few months of butterfly-hood has taught me lightening things such as this.. there’s so much to try and so much to enjoy..
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