At some point the podcasts got all gummed up. Granted, Adrien jumped in and fixed all that. But at some point there were just so many technical difficulties and hassle and headaches ... there was a powerful urge of "fuck this shit".
Then we did the thing where we sold some of the podcasts. Most podcasts get downloaded about 4000 times in the first week. So when i sold it, I thought "maybe 1000 or 2000 would buy - and that will pay for help." As of today, 61 people have paid.
I have had some people send me money via paypal and say "thanks for the podcasts, they
feed my soul!" - which is cool.
I have to admit that I am feeling a bit off. I feel like I want to make the podcasts just for the people that pay a little something. And I'm exploring that space.
But more importantly, I feel like the podcasts have turned into a massive pain in the ass. I'm just not feeling as jazzed about doing them. First there is the stuff I mentioned in podcast 008. Then there is the stuff about selling to 61 instead of thousands. Then there is the ongoing thing of lining somebody up for a podcast and then they cancel, and all the wonky crazy that goes on around getting things arranged and whatnot.
And there is more, more, more. Adrien has fixed most things, and is currently fixing a bunch of other stuff. And now I realize that the thing gumming up the podcasts now is me.
Don't get me wrong, I have ideas for a hundred more podcasts. I really want to do more chapter-by-chapter book reviews, and DVD/movie reviews. And interviews with awesome people. And at the same time, I put it off. My audience is 61 people. And 4000 freeloaders.
Neil Bertrando and I want to do a chapter-by-chapter review of "Botany in a Day". I think it will be kick ass. We could start today. Neil pings me once in a while about it and I keep putting him off. If we recorded the first chapter today, I bet Adrien would take care of everything and it would be up tomorrow.
I'm trying to think about what is holding me up. Why don't I call Neil this minute and say "how about one hour from now?"
I got nothing. I don't know why. I just don't feel like it.
I have the DVD "Hands on Agronomy". Helen has set up three appointments to review it with me and has cancelled three times. I suppose if my heart was in it I could come up with something to get her here. I suppose I might even shell out a hundred bucks to come up with some sort of strategy to bait her. And there it is. For the 226 podcasts, I have shelled out thousands of dollars to get them to exist.
So rather than exploring why I don't do it and how to fix it, I tried thinking of a path of where I would do it and be glad to do it.
Well, if some big outfit said "We're gonna professionally manage all this technical stuff, and do all sorts of marketing and promotion, and pay you way too much money to make it! We require at least two a month, but if you put out one a day we will roll with that too. No restrictions on content and you have full veto power." then that would work. So this sorta shocked me: I would do this for money? On further thinking, it isn't the money as much as it is money is the metric.
I thought about it some more and came up with: part of it is Adrien doing what he is doing; part of it would be the podcasts 008 stuff (other people promoting each podcast) and part of it would be the getting paid - which is a way to show that the podcasts have value and is appareciated THIS MUCH.
I think podcast 225 is an excellent podcast. How much did it get promoted by people other than me? 3 shares at
facebook. I posted it to reddit and it got 31 upvotes and 11 downvotes. No other reddit posts. Anything else? I doubt it.
I remember a joke from a long time ago:
A man offers a woman a million dollars to have sex with him. She knows he has the money and says "okay." And then he offers her ten dollars instead and she says "what kind of woman do you think I am?" "We already know what kind of woman you are, now we are haggling over the price."
So then I try to think about what might be an in-between point where I will get back to making podcasts. To sort of haggle with myself.
Adrien has been pushing for improving cash flow so that the funds can be used for stuff. Maybe getting promotion for the podcasts and other things. Damn smart. So with cash flow tied to the podcasts, I get the fiscal validation, plus those funds can be used by Adrien to get proper promotion for each new podcast.
So, Adrien is trying all sorts of things to start opening monetization routes with the podcasts. There is potential there.
But what about future podcasts? What about this thing where I just don't feel like making a podcast? Yesterday, I started those threads where somebody could toss some money into the ring for a podcast or
video. That did feel like that would work. Then it isn't just me being the driving force. Somebody else is putting something into it also.
You know what would be really awesome: if some outfit like peaceful valley farm supply said "Here's $5000 - we wanna sponsor the next 25 podcasts. And if we like what you say about us, we'll make a link on our home page and throw a mention out in our mailings." Money and promotion.
Even if I got $100 for one podcast, I could find a way to use that $100 to somehow pay for promotion of that same podcast.
When I first started the podcasts, I was told that dozens of people were going to voluntarily take over my boring promotion tasks. And two or three did for a bit, but then it stopped. Traffic to the empire dropped like a rock because I was making podcasts instead of the boring promotion chores.
226 podcasts. 224 are free. I've shelled out about $6000 to get them out there. Plus a huge gob of time. With the new scubbly stuff, I've pulled in about $500 so far from them. Maybe once all of Adrien's work starts to pay off, that will take a lot of the sting out. I've given a lot of free stuff to a lot of people. More than all other
permaculture people combined.
61 people bought podcast 218 with
Art Ludwig. After the expenses, my income is $114.72. Lame. so seriously lame. So asking 4000 people to chip in a couple of bucks each isn't gonna work.
You know what would be awesome: Somebody says "Here is $2000. Do that Botany in a Day series with Neil and mention my biz (or my name) at the beginning of each podcast." I could give Neil half. That would be super cool.
Then, making more podcasts would be clearly smart. Whereas right now, making more podcasts seems like a dumb idea.
Maybe I
should put all podcasts on hold until the already existing podcasts get downloaded twice as much. Or until the
income streams exceed the costs. Or until I earn at least $10 an hour rather than some negative amount. Until then, I could just think: yes, I have made a large contribution to the greater good and now I am done with that.
tl;dr: the podcasts have stopped because I don't feel like making them right now.