POST 542 (DAY 552, Saturday, 2022.02.12)
[Morning Entry]
…… grateful for progress.. I am possibly the slowest person that I know.. I often look around at others and notice their pace.. there was a time when this contrast in ability would bother me.. today, I am okay with being “slow”.. I also notice others who are slower than me at certain things.. we all come in a variety of speeds and flavors, don’t we?.. and yet here we are, basking in the glow of the sun’s free and generous life-giving
energy.. comparison thinking, in terms of “better” or “worse” than, often leads to a less than happy place.. and I can only stand to be in an unhappy place for so long before the urge to move along gongs the core of me.. if, rather, I focus on comparing myself to my previous self, I can ask a productive question as, “have I improved?”.. and thus, progress becomes my new measuring stick.. am I getting closer to the achievable targets that I have set up for myself?.. if not, can I change my approach?.. if yes, have I celebrated the marked and or measurable progress?.. I think IF I had a child in my stewardship, that child might appreciate this sort of guidance someday.. we’re all different plants in a kingdom of
polyculture.. each with their own characteristics and strengths.. what’s my strength?.. I’m not quite sure still.. perhaps it’s the ability to see that I DO have stewardship of at least one child—you guessed it—my own inner child.. :)