POST 99 (DAY 106, Tuesday, 2020.11.24)
[Morning Entry] ::: KIND COMPANY :::
its taco tuesday!
THE WORK (yesterday): AM/PM--The First Wofati
Greenhouse, man~!!!.. dug a trench to lay down a drain pipe, at a 3-4% grade.. my first time.. cut out a few notches for the final rafter of the west wingwall.. it was a below freezing temperatures all day.. my toes are now used to being the coldest part of my body.. my fingers too.. but the fingers seem to warm up when I use a shovel--pretty cool to know..
yesterday was a breakthrough moment for me.. bur I could not have had that moment without the support of this community.. there was something heavy on me, regarding the social dynamics of living in community.. I believe I was having trouble communicating.. and yesterday things were brought up to clear the air, so to speak.. what was so "breakthrough" about it?.. I was able to communicate my thoughts and feelings in a way that embraced individuality and honored differences between the people involve.. I took my time to think instead of reacting or blaming.. I sought to understand before seeking to be understood.. and the end result was one where all parties involved felt at peace..
I'm used to living in a home where harmony and peace was a thin veneer covering the unspoken resentments and/or grudges.. I never really liked it to be that way.. here I have a chance to contribute in a way that maintains harmony and peace, reduces resentments and/or grudges.. and it feels like a safe place to speak and know that I'll be heard.. I am living among my examples--the people who live here.. they, simply by their way of being, help set the tone for using good manners in genuine expression, while still having fun working together.. it is because of my current company that I have found the courage within myself to "step up my game", to match pace in
class, to behave in kind and in kindness.. don't tell them i said this, but i love them like a fat kid loves cake..
enjoy the pics~!